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State of the Elf

Geh.  When was the last time I did one of these?

No more online, journal-based RP for me.  I left the last one a while back.  I miss talking to the folks, but I don't miss the stress.  And I will never Mod another RPG again.  Now if someone would just stop waving such pretty Yaoi boys at me, I might have a chance... :P

Work is still hell.  We did our big meeting thing, and changes are proceeding apace.  Some of which actually are helping, though from the current mess, you wouldn't know it.  I have a feeling that I'll be getting in more OT real soon.  Already did an hour tonight.  And I deserve ten million treats for how good I'm being about work.  So I bought myself a few fun things, including something someone on my flist suggested: My Gender Workbook.  I'm finding it fascinating so far.  Haven't gotten far into it, but I definitely like it.  Also got another name book, a couple of other books, the Pelican Brief on DVD, and a game for my DS.  I'm still trying to decide what else I should get...

D_D...  I really loved my idea when it came to me, but I can't concentrate enough lately to write, and what I have sucks utterly.  Saturday will be it, I'm afraid.  I hate leaving it that late, but I have to go see Hellboy tomorrow if I want to retain my sanity.  (see treats comment above.)

Haven't spent our Tax refund.  I want to get all new sheets and pillows, and a new bolster for my comforter or two.  And an ergonimic keyboard.  Not sure what else I need, aside from a maid and storage. :P

Dr Who...An amazing episode, though I know many are upset by it.  I won't say much here, but I thought they did a great job, even with the issues so many have with it.

Stargate this weekend!  Wooo!

Sister and hubby have finally moved back to Seattle.  They moved down to the Bay area for his job shortly before they were married (he works for Google), and he finally managed to convince them he could do the same thing he was doing down there up here.  So they've been making the rounds with my niece, who is utterly adorable, and whom I cannot get enough of (and if you know me very well, you know how little I like babies, so that's saying a lot).  Shower next weekend.  I need to find time to buy things... *sighs*


Been spending an inordinate amount of time at a new site I found: Listal, because it's easier than writing or thinking.  You can list movies, books, tv shows, video games, and DVDs that you have, love, or want to see.  And you can make lists within each category, and reviews.  I'm loving it.  Does anyone else have an account there, so I can friend them, and if not, do you want one?  I've already done reviews for all seven HP books.  And a review each for Contact, Dogma, and Matrix.  I'm trying to decide what I should review next.  Anyone have any suggestions?

Erm...sure I've forgotten many, many things.  But it's a start, right?


Jul. 10th, 2008 11:18 pm (UTC)
I know how you feel about buying things as a reward for tough times. I had an extremely traumatic experience on the bus ride home today that led me to actually get off the bus and wait for the next one instead. I will spare you the terrible details but it triggered all my OCD tendencies. So I went to Toys 'R' Us tonight and bought a Pound Puppy...so cute.

I've enjoyed reading your Listal lists, very fun. Still not sure if I want to invest the effort it takes to join up myself.

Oh, and I have to tell you, I saw THE perfect shower curtain for Tonks's house down at the Bed Bath and Beyond today...I'll see if I can find a picture of it online...
Jul. 11th, 2008 08:27 am (UTC)
The problem is thinking up something worthy enough for all this ongoing stress... *sighs*

Sorry you had a bad experience.

Go check out my Dogma review. It's already gotten 2 votes. :D
Jul. 11th, 2008 01:10 am (UTC)
No more online, journal-based RP for me. I left the last one a while back. I miss talking to the folks, but I don't miss the stress. And I will never Mod another RPG again.

Funny how you, I and [info]kabal42 have all come to the same conclusion. It's so sad, but a little less than a year ago, I just came to the conclusion that it was not fun anymore, just a time suck and something that was making me completely nuts and miserable. It screwed up friendships, caused all sorts of wank and just turned out to be a non-stop nightmare. I miss writing/playing with a few people (including you) but overall, nope. Done, done, done.

I feel for you re: writing. I havent been able to write anything for d-d for 3 months. I've been struggling with my [info]hp_summersmut for weeks now. It's happening but slooooooowly. *whines* So yeah, understood.

Hope we can talk at some point. I miss chatting with you! Besides, I am curious about your opinions on DW. Sadly, yes, I am one of the people who was not very happy with the way things turned out. Mostly the last 10 minutes.
Jul. 11th, 2008 08:37 am (UTC)
It's just such a drain. It's fun when it works, but I think once you've started on the downhill slope, it's hard to get back to that part where it works.

*nods* I have my D_D (for Sunday), and a creature fic for a fest, and then I'm done. Maybe it's time to stop. I don't know. I just can't write any more. I have no time or energy for it, with work stuff.

As soon as I saw the ending, I knew you'd be upset because I knew how much you liked her. We should definitely chat soon. If I can ever find a few minutes.
Jul. 11th, 2008 06:39 pm (UTC)
It is. I actually felt relieved when I quit my last one. I really liked a few people but I was at the point of having panic attacks when I went to look at the game site which is probably NOT healthy...*sigh* It really was a major time suck so I'm happy about that and more than happy not to be up every night angry or crying over something ridiculous.

If you need to take a hiatus from d-d, just let me know. We'll miss you like crazy but I know what it's like to be blocked and burnt out so...yeah. Real life can take all the creativity out of us.

I definitely related to Donna way too much. She was the first companion in forever that I felt that way about. The last was probably Sarah Jane back in the day. I'll get over it -- I just really hated what was done with her because it just felt like another case of a producer/writer pretty much giving the audience a big FU. Especially when it was the last real episode for 2 years. Not the note I think the series should have gone out for given everything. :-/
Jul. 12th, 2008 01:17 am (UTC)
*nods* So was I. I think that's an excellent sign that we both probably waited too long to do it. I am sorry it was causing you such stress, though. *snugs*

Everyone keeps telling me I should take a break. I'm just so hard on myself...it's like this need to write just because I have been there from the beginning, and haven't taken a break yet. I've been considering offering up half my date, but then we're not as full up any more, are we?

*nods* I could tell. And you had good reason to. She was very unusual as a companion--not stellar or gorgeous or extremely remarkable, but actually real. It was nice to see.

As for the ending--I think I'm just so used to Joss Whedon's antics that it doesn't affect me as much, if that makes sense? But I definitely see your point. And you're probably right, it was his way of thumbing his nose at someone.
Jul. 12th, 2008 01:31 am (UTC)
I'm sorry it was causing me so much stress too. Last year just was a bad year in terms of me and fandom. It cost friendships too which is the worst part to me. :-/

It's really up to you, hon. I wont push you either way but I know what you mean. I didn't plan on taking a break. It just snuck up on me and I was just blocked. I still am but am hoping to do something nasty to Percy this month. Assuming I can ever get this bloody Summersmut story done. I've been working on it for weeks and I'm only like halfway there.

We've gotten some new blood @ d-d and that's been a good thing. So if you want to switch to half-time, that would work. Whatever you need is fine with us.

I think it's also because Donna was 40 and not a built like a supermodel. That she was single and living with her family, had loads of skills she didn't realise she possessed, had a strained relationship with her mum and was really looking for something to save her. Or something like that.

I got really tired of Joss's antics too. That's part of my annoyance. Joss did it. The producers of Lost do it. The producers of BSG do it. Several authors have done it. It just seems to be the in thing to torment and/or kill off a popular character in a heinous way just to prove you can. I guess I'm old fashioned and want a happy ending or at least something that makes me feel good in the end. I always knew Catherine was only staying for the one season, but given everything, I just think Donna would have rather died remembering everything, then being forced back into the person she was 2 years ago without any recourse. If she had been mindwiped but somehow kept her self-assured kick ass personality, I'd have been fine with it. But to see her turn back into the bitchy, shallow, clueless woman she was prior to "The Runaway Bride" just hurt. To the point where I can't even rewatch any S4 episodes now. I've been a DW fan for 30 years and other than Adric, no one's ever been sent off like this. Granted, I wouldn't have wanted Donna to suddenly fall in love with some guy and leave the Doctor after 10 minutes, but it just seems like there should've been some middle ground. It's not a 'death' I can feel good about because it just seems like it went a bit too far. I dunno. I'm weird.
Jul. 12th, 2008 05:25 pm (UTC)
I've managed, and I'm actually pretty happy with what I ended up with. :) Thank you, though.

*nods* I can't blame you, like I said. She was pretty different from the usual companion.

It does seem to be the thing to do this decade. Starting with Buffy, I suppose. At least with Buffy, I could see that he had a plan past that point, and so I could handle it. Though I think it got to be a bad habit with him as well.
Jul. 11th, 2008 03:33 am (UTC)
I saw Hellboy at 12:01! *dances; doesn't spoil*
Jul. 11th, 2008 08:38 am (UTC)
That sounds like a good reaction, at least... :D
Jul. 12th, 2008 01:19 am (UTC)
Back. So what did you think?
Jul. 12th, 2008 03:19 pm (UTC)
I loved it! It was beautifully shot (I wish that certain thematic and plot-related elements had been fleshed out, but that would most likely have been asking too much of the genre). I'm not sure that I buy Krauss' leaving at the end, and the true love business between Nuala and Abe was a tad rushed, but overall, my biggest concern is why Hellboy doesn't split Liz in half.


And now I want Nuada/Nuala fic. Badly.

What did you think?
Jul. 12th, 2008 05:35 pm (UTC)
The effects were definitely gorgeous. Especially the elemental sequence. Very anime-like in that part. And I loved Nuada and Nuala. Are you a fan of the Beauty and the Beast tv show? I was amused that Father from that played the Elf King in this, considering who plays Hellboy. :D Now all we needed was Linda Hamilton in it as well. :D

The love story was definitely a bit too much to swallow. It needed something more to lead up to it, I think.


I wouldn't mind reading Nuada/Nuala. :D I was giggling over Eey's entry this morning when I saw it.
Jul. 12th, 2008 06:20 pm (UTC)
The twincest thing? *huggles Eey* I'm working on her to write some. ;)

I didn't think about the Beauty and the Beast connection, but yay!
Jul. 11th, 2008 05:22 am (UTC)
Oh money to spend's a very good thing. I didn't know your sis was back, that sounds good, especially with half you family being jerks.

As for "Now if someone would just stop waving such pretty Yaoi boys at me..." Hah. You're so wonderfully naïve. :D

Apart from that, you sound as if you are in need of a holiday.
Jul. 11th, 2008 08:41 am (UTC)
She's the best part of the family, really. Though I do love my folks. I'm very happy about it.

No, not naive. Just a bit Pollyanna, perhaps. ;)

A really really long one. Think my boss'd let me go for another two years? :P
Jul. 11th, 2008 08:49 am (UTC)
Maybe less than two could do? Just to be slightly reasonable. On the other hand, you have money, that isn't bad either. Especially if you had time to use them.

Perhaps. You really sport some optimism if you think you are going to succeed. *smirks*
Jul. 11th, 2008 08:58 am (UTC)
Yeah. Especially since I only have about 2 or 3 days worth of paid vacation at this point. Ah, well...

:D I know that I'm rather going up against the unstoppable force, yes. ;)
Jul. 11th, 2008 09:11 am (UTC)
2 or 3 days? O_o That wasn't much. *huggles* Poor you. Can't you take e few days off anyway, and pay for it yourself? Not worth ruining your health over if there is stress pending.

Give in to it, hon. It might feel painful at first, but after it'll be good! *smirks more* You know I am going to tease you relentlessly with this, right?
Jul. 12th, 2008 12:55 am (UTC)
I only started in February. So I haven't had much time to accrue vacation yet. But I get a bit for every hour I work. I can take unpaid leave if I wish, though they can deny it to me if they don't want to give it.

Oh, yes. I know you will. :D
Jul. 11th, 2008 08:58 am (UTC)
You, Pollyanna! Ha...when's the last time you played the Glad Game...Heh, sorry, I just watched the movie last weekend so it's fresh in my mind...BTW, the alerts seem to be down for when you reply, so I never read your response till this morning.

As for quitting your writing stuff, doesn't that just mean that what little effort you can muster in this heat and stress can just go towards your original works now? See, that's how you play the Glad Game...
Jul. 11th, 2008 09:01 am (UTC)
:P Hey, I can be optimistic in very strange ways.

No, I just didn't manage to get to it until this morning. It's very hard to think right now.

Haah! :P Not likely.
Jul. 11th, 2008 09:09 am (UTC)
Treating yourself is good. And important. I know how much you've worked recently, and you really, really do need to treat yourself. You deserve it!

That boss of yours better praise you, too :-)
Jul. 11th, 2008 09:11 am (UTC)
Hopefully I'll get a chance soon. We'll see.

I think he got a glimpse of my effect yesterday, at least. I suppose that's something. He's pretty burned out himself. Too much going on in his life. Serious illness in his immediate family, a new baby, and all this. I do feel for the guy. And he's a good guy, too. I just hope he makes it through.
Jul. 11th, 2008 09:18 am (UTC)
I hope so, too.

*nods* He probably did.
Poor guy. Got to be tough to try and get the place through major restructuring on top of all of the personal stuff. *crosses fingers for him*
Jul. 12th, 2008 01:03 am (UTC)
Yeah, it looks like it's really wearing him down.
Jul. 11th, 2008 09:38 am (UTC)
*snugs* hope you enjoy seeing Hellboy2. I'll be waiting for it to hit hbo or cinemax. I've heard of Listal. I'm not sure I would want to join up. I've enough trouble getting my library on Shelfari. :P

Which Dr.Who episode was it? season ending? I've not been keeping up with it on BBCA, I watch it sometimes on Sci-Fi. I do not mind spoilers if you want to email them to me.

I think Sev, Mikko and a few other charries may have a loose set up like Bad Boyz. I'm not sure if I'll do another journal based rpg. Not knowing all the unwritten rules means making people upset. I don't like doing that.

I'm going to make an attempt on finishing up some wip's this weekend. I'm sure your boss noticed the good you are doing at work. *snugs*
Jul. 12th, 2008 01:06 am (UTC)
It was fun. I enjoyed it. There was a great fight sequence in it. :D Among other things...

Season finale of Who, yes. If you're on this weekend, we can talk about it. :)

It's really easiest to play with just a couple of people, because the larger the crowd, the higher the chances are someone will take offense at something unexpected. If you do, I'd love to watch. :D

Good luck with teh writing!
Jul. 12th, 2008 03:45 pm (UTC)
I'll be on and off today. Hubby is doing well at W.W. He called twice to verify prices. LOL

I need to give you a link to our play place *face/palm* forgot to scoop it. :P
Jul. 12th, 2008 05:41 pm (UTC)
Just finished my story, so I'm relaxing and trying to catch up on everything I missed over the week. Glad things at the event are going well.

I can't recall if Esther has linked me or not. But a link would be lovely. :)
Jul. 12th, 2008 05:51 pm (UTC)
Slytherins_etc Insanity has already started there. Sev and Molly are picking at each other in a test thread.

I'm burning up some turkey brats for supper on the deck. I'll be back in later.
Jul. 11th, 2008 11:05 am (UTC)
Treats are important when you wish to maintain some level of sanity, yesh! :D

I'm glad you found some good stuff, I remember you wondering what to get. Seeing you got Pelican Brief made me smile, I really like that, both book and movie. *adds to list of must-see-again-soon movies*

I'm really happy for you that you have your sister back in Seattle :)

As you said, I think we've talked about all of this, but I still couldn't help myself :D
Jul. 12th, 2008 01:08 am (UTC)
*nods* Helps one think positively. :) I did. I still have a bunch of money I can spend. Maybe I'll save half for Spore. :D

Love the Pelican Brief. Never read the book, though. Grisham, right?

Me, too. :D

*snuggles* Any time, hon.
Jul. 11th, 2008 02:49 pm (UTC)
I read this last night after you disappeared, but I didn't comment.

*hugs* I hope things get better at work for you soon. I hate stress at work...and I'm always under it. I get no pats on the back and I don't even get vacation. :( So I know how you feel.

I try to treat myself to something each payday because I know how hard I work and if I didn't reward myself, then I know no one else would.

I understand how it can be getting burned out with work and fics and rpging. Right now I'm just...ugh with rpgs. And somehow I always let myself get roped into another one. *sigh* They are my weakness. Especially if I don't have to complete an application.
Jul. 12th, 2008 01:10 am (UTC)
Sorry I disappeared. So tired these days.

*snugs* I'm sorry you have to deal with stressful work, too.

They are tempting, aren't they? Especially when your favorite character is free...
Jul. 12th, 2008 01:13 am (UTC)
It's totally okay. *hug*

Thanks. Ugh. I got home at a decent time and of course there's no one here to play with. *pouts*

...god yes! AHHHH!
Jul. 12th, 2008 01:21 am (UTC)
I have a few friends over at LJ who talk about their RPGs a lot, and one of them mentioned a few months back (right after we started FL, I think...) that they'd just gotten Severus and Remus, or something like that...and that their Severus needed his Draco... I really haven't been able to shut up mine, since. Though I did manage to stop him from getting me to apply... :P
Jul. 12th, 2008 01:23 am (UTC)
Bwhahahha! I made my Millicent shut up so I didn't take her at my other rpg...I took another Slytherin instead for a change. But...not getting a lot of play out of her. *sigh* And...last night me and one of my friends set up a next generation rpg on LJ. *headdesk*
Jul. 11th, 2008 04:11 pm (UTC)
Hey, remember to tell me if you're going with me and if we're taking your Mom! :)

Jul. 12th, 2008 01:11 am (UTC)
Yep. Will call when I've talked to her. :)